:[ It makes me sooo sad to have that as my title. That was a Matt+Sara thing :[. Ohhhhh goodness. Let's NOT think about that one...

Well. Hmm. I've cried at least twenty times the tears i normally cry. Haha. At least in one day. Shoot, I don't think I've cried this much in a while. It sucks, but it feels really good at the same time.

Scott. I just don't know what to do with him. Seriously... It sucks. Like, he's been grounded this WHOLE month. And then what does he do? The day he gets un-grounded (TODAY) he has to go hang out with his friends. When we already had plans. Just because his friend is back from military school. But not fucking tomorrow when i work fucking the night shift. NO! HE HAS TO FUCKING DO IT TO-FUCKING-NIGHT! JESUS CHRIST! Seriously. Why? I don't understand it. And it pisses me the fuck off. GOD DAMN. And that's why I've been crying. Because he does this all the time. And then like, it's ALWAYS this Steve kid, so whenever I hear him, of couse I'm going to associate him with me being FUCKING FURIOUS! GAAAAAAQQQQQQWEOIJANFKJSDNFKLSDJFNSDKLJFN. JESUS CHRIST! Just his name makes me want to shank someone.

Awww, Jackie! :[ I miss her immensely.

It sucks, I can't ever have a 'best friend' that's always constantly close.

I think that's why I hate Scott and Jake. Because they've had each other for so long and I'm just jealous. UGGGGH.

And as much as I hate to admit it, I miss Matt. Just because we were such good friends, and just like... knew each other. And this whole situation breaks my heart. And it sucks. But if Scott ever found out he'd hate me. THANK GOD he doesn't ever read this. :]

Well, I feel a tiny bit better. Ha. Back to babysitting...

I officially hate drama.
I thought graduating from high school meant that was over...? What the hell happened!? God, I just want to disappear, but I know that won't make everything okay. :[

And I thought I wanted to write about it, but now I don't. I'm sooo lazy now a days. It sucks :[

Here's my site where I will be tracking my Mission101 (Which I'm starting over with Sam)

Sare101.livejournal.com

Add me if you want to see my progress!

So, I realized today that my mission 101 time frame is almost up. And I really haven't done a lot of things on it. I think my goal today is to revise the things that are too old for me to do, or irrelevant (aka, anything to do with Kevin, because I know those things are on there).

( Mission 101 )

Well, 190 days left. I need to get cracking! :]

But not party every day. Haha. God, I had a fun but horrible night last night.

It was the first time I've ever gotten, like, COMPLETELY trashed. It was horrible. I mean, getting there was fun. Just... being wasted was horrible. I don't remember a lot, which actually really scares me. And a lot of the stuff that I found out I did was embarassing. No, scratch that, IS embarassing. Like, the fact that I apparently sat on the floor and cried for Scott? Gah, what the hell, right?

So, I think I've decided that I'm just not going to get drunk. Like, I'll drink (maybe), but I won't get drunk. :]

Scott and I's 5 month is in a couple days. Actually, now I think it's in like, a day. Wow. Time fucking FLIES. Even though I'm not entirely sure where we stand with each other anymore. His best friend hates me and really wants us to break up. Scott says that he loves me, and it's just to that point where it's like "Do I believe the Scott I know, or the Scott Jake knows?" Yeah. It's lame.

College started last Thursday. It's pretty... okay. I like my classes and the people I have in them. Both my Calc and Psych teachers are pretty cool. So, that should be good. There's a kid named Nicholas Williams whose in both of my classes. That'll be interesting. Maybe we'll become study buddies? :D